God is Good... Part 4

Psalm 119:68

You are good and what you do is good; teach me your decrees.

Continued from Part 1 and Part 2 and Part 3. 
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God is loving and merciful and I am believing in his Godly goodness. Slowly.

I know he hears me because of these little things…

I took a break from the Beth Moore homework because it was a lot to think about. I was being rebuked. But I think in the best way. Privately between me and God.

Sunday morning Em woke up 3 hours earlier than usual so I resumed my homework. And in one paragraph Beth Moore wrote out the hymn, “Trust and obey for there is no other way to be happy in Jesus, than to trust and obey”. I underlined it and made a mental note that I read that this morning, because I knew I was going to hear that again.

And I did. In church J.

I was working in the nursery that morning, but they have a TV in the room so you can watch the sermon and that same hymn was being sung by our Pastor as the closing benediction. I was not surprised and  was comforted.  God was speaking to me. He hears me and he sees me trying. I know he is pleased with that.

A couple days later I was feeling very slow and tired, but not sleepy tired, just tired all over. So I put Em down for a nap a little early and was so thankful she fell asleep and I decided to lay down too. I didn’t think I would sleep but I did. When I woke up I went to resume my homework. The homework called for us to look up a particular verse. Psalm 62:1. As I flipping to that verse, I said aloud, to myself…

“I am so tired” and realizing that I just took a nap I felt the need to correct myself and I said aloud while still flipping through the pages, “My soul is tired” and then I found the verse and it said “My soul finds rest in God alone;”

I got a kick out of that.

I do believe if you talk to God and read his Word and study, he will talk to you back. You will hear him.

I am still praying and seeking and wondering if I am doing what God wants me to do.

Am I praying for the right things? I still worry at times if things are ever going to change.

 I don’t really worry about this stuff too much during the day. It is almost always when I am awake at night or wee early morning hours. I think that is when the devil knows my defenses are down. But I pray, I pray for others and I journal and I read the Bible and do my Bible Study homework.

And eventually the answer comes to me and I can sleep again and find rest for a little bit longer. 

I think I have more to write...I think :)